I have made progress on my Christmas list. I made sugar cookies today with Jim’s help. He rolled and cut them out for me. I got them frosted afterwards. New Year’s Cookies are rising and the oil is heating now so I will get those done in about an hour. Got the shawl finished up this morning and 1/4 of the blanket knitted.
Next up is getting the sugar cookies put in containers and put in the boxes to ship along with the New Year’s Cookies. Then I can seal up the boxes and take them to town tomorrow. I’m only one day behind schedule – not bad.
I didn’t sleep much at all last night. I slept for about 1 1/2 hours and then was up for five hours. Went back to bed after taking another hot bath and found another 1 hour of sleep. I’m a bit tired today. Not going to take a nap though so maybe I can sleep tonight.
I took five calls on the hot line last night. Most were high risk callers. One I had to notify the supervisor as he checked all the boxes for high risk of suicide. We were able to talk him down and he probably lived to see another day. You never know what happens after you end the conversation.
Another of Jim’s presents came in today and I got it wrapped. One more will be here Tuesday and then I will have his Christmas ready. I am getting ever so close to calling it good for present wrapping and shopping. I have two more presents I need to purchase and two others that need wrapped. Christmas is two weeks from today. Time seems to be flying by quickly these days.
I have reached the point of no return on my dirty house. As soon as I get the boxes off tomorrow project get this dirty house clean will begin. I have not cleaned for ever and it is starting to bother me. It is not only dirty but it is also cluttered and that drives me over the edge. Time for things to get back where they belong and time for the dirt to be gone.
It is a cold and cloudy day on the prairie. No precipitation has fallen yet although it is foggy out. If it is going to be cloudy and cold I would prefer it to be raining or snowing and take advantage of the clouds. Clouds for no good reason can go away!
We will have to go to town tomorrow to mail the five packages that will be ready to go. Monday I will have one more that will need shipped. It will be so good to have them on their way and out of my dining room.
I have been sitting with why Christmas time is so hard for me. I really don’t like much of it. Part of it has to do with the decreasing light that continues until Winter Solstice on December 21. I always seem to do some hard personal work during this time of the year. It can be exhausting and demanding and when I try to force myself to do things that I feel need to be done for Christmas I get drained. I have cut back so much on what I do on Christmas to help myself out. Yet I feel the same overwhelm and frustration with it all anyways. Maybe with the pandemic and not having a family gathering it will be easier this year. We shall see.
I really dislike shopping be it for myself or someone else. Buying a gift because it is expected is the worse! I don’t feel like I am a good gift buyer. I hate “stuff” and hate to get more stuff for myself or for someone else. If I happen to be out and about and run across something that I think someone would enjoy I will buy it and give it to them just because. That type of shopping and buying is ever so more satisfying to me.
Grateful the sugar cookies are done, grateful the New Year’s cookies are almost done and grateful the shawl is off the needles.